June Challenge: Day 16: Something difficult about my "lot in life"

Day 16, Sunday: Something difficult about my "lot in life" and how I’m working to overcome it

My life isn't difficult, not really. I mean don't get me wrong things aren't always easy but they aren't bad either. I am very much a believer that we all go through our own "stuff", which can't be compared in size, volume or type to anyone else's and that it isn't what we go through that counts but how we pick ourselves up after it. 

For me at the moment my biggest challenge is that I am about to lose the person I love most and I'm not sure how I will cope once that day is here. The enormity of the weight of sadness I know will hit me is far too big to comprehend right now and it isn't going to be something I can just pick myself up from and carry on. 

I cannot change that she is going to die, unfortunately all options as far as that is concerned have been exhausted. All I can do is continue to love and support her, be there for her and help her make plans because she is getting weaker by the day and I hate seeing her in pain. 

I know that when the time comes she will have to leave and I will be left behind, yet I know that I will have to cope, carry on and live my life - not just because that is what she wants me to do but because that is what I need to do. We should have had a whole life of friendship together to enjoy everything we wanted to do, so I owe it to her to live life as I have always planned to. I will take each day as it comes, I will cherish the memories I have of our time together and I will just keep on putting one foot in front of the other. 

I don't want to lose her but in that I have no choice. Instead all I can do is keep going, living my life as I would always have done and knowing that when the wind rustles in the leaves right beside me my beautiful girl is there whispering in my ear.